I was confused but now it all starts to make sense. The more I replayed things in mind, the more it sheds light to the matter. And the more I understand, the more it hurts!
Connecting the dots – is what I do best. A strength I detest especially when things go wrong.
All this time I feel fear. Fear mixed with ire, salted with pity towards a person. Fear in a way I begin to know she is opposite of the person I know she is. Fear, that she was duped. Manipulated. Brain-washed! Anger because of willfully charging someone innocent. Yes, she does! And pity. Pity for her. I say pity!Too desperate forcing a fool out of her hurling blames on anyone at every turn!
She plays scenes in mind, wandering off to a world of null and hunch and folly. Senseless. Unreasonable.
A dream. A bad one this is. These things that befall seem to be all unreal. A nightmare I want to rid myself of. I want to awake.
Then came this hazy encounter in sleep. Some things just haunt us even when we're asleep. Guess these happen if one so longs to air out something that storms within.
It eventually turned into terror when it involved such a gruesome person- one who thinks of own self before anyone else - arrogant and assuming.
Scenes are played. I have both of us. Then a soft, intimate voice pierces this deafening silence, it says,
"I admire you. Esteemed. Respected you above all in it. Put you in the pedestals and hailed you. We looked up to you. In our dark moments you are that ray of sunshine we cling to. Now you created walls. Boundaries you ruthlessly traced. All of a sudden you nag with a voiceless indignation. Hateful stares you sparingly throw. Reasons I seek, but couldn't find anything sane! Despite these, still, pleasant thoughts of you prevails.. They forced their way in and compelled me to believe you are the same person I once knew you were. One who does things heedfully. Logically. One willing to spend more time thinking, and putting things in order first before making a move. One who is prudent. Principled. Wise..."
Connecting the dots – is what I do best. A strength I detest especially when things go wrong.
All this time I feel fear. Fear mixed with ire, salted with pity towards a person. Fear in a way I begin to know she is opposite of the person I know she is. Fear, that she was duped. Manipulated. Brain-washed! Anger because of willfully charging someone innocent. Yes, she does! And pity. Pity for her. I say pity!Too desperate forcing a fool out of her hurling blames on anyone at every turn!
She plays scenes in mind, wandering off to a world of null and hunch and folly. Senseless. Unreasonable.
A dream. A bad one this is. These things that befall seem to be all unreal. A nightmare I want to rid myself of. I want to awake.
Then came this hazy encounter in sleep. Some things just haunt us even when we're asleep. Guess these happen if one so longs to air out something that storms within.
It eventually turned into terror when it involved such a gruesome person- one who thinks of own self before anyone else - arrogant and assuming.
Scenes are played. I have both of us. Then a soft, intimate voice pierces this deafening silence, it says,
"I admire you. Esteemed. Respected you above all in it. Put you in the pedestals and hailed you. We looked up to you. In our dark moments you are that ray of sunshine we cling to. Now you created walls. Boundaries you ruthlessly traced. All of a sudden you nag with a voiceless indignation. Hateful stares you sparingly throw. Reasons I seek, but couldn't find anything sane! Despite these, still, pleasant thoughts of you prevails.. They forced their way in and compelled me to believe you are the same person I once knew you were. One who does things heedfully. Logically. One willing to spend more time thinking, and putting things in order first before making a move. One who is prudent. Principled. Wise..."
And you changed.
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